July 17th, 2026

Long time no see

It has been 34 weeks and 5 days since I've last uploaded my blog - and its been a very exhasting, overwhelming year for me. Firstly, I want to say that I'm dedicating myself to keeping this website updated (how do we like the new layout?), and I'm also starting to work on new music again after mostly stopping a year ago. In the past year, I got hired at my job and have completed junior year (which sucked -_-), and my time has mostly been occupied with college tours, scholorship research, and essay writing. I've come to realize that this entire time, aero.online, aero.os, and this website (newly renamed to lurret.online!) have been my passion project all along. I want to major in computer engineering, due to my lifelong love and admiration for computers, and I also want to minor in music; and without even realizing it, my music and my hobbies have formed the ultimate passion project to show my dedication to this. This summer I've been touring some of my top colleges, and it has been an exciting, stressful, and anxious experience so far. On one hand, I'm extremely excited at the prospect of attending a college like NYU or Columbia, but its led to me constantly comparing myself to other's achivements, and I'm super anxious that I'll feel dissapointment - that all my effort would be for nothing. But I've also been having some deep reflection of the past 17 years of my life during this time, and it has led me to remember that all the stress and passion have been worth it, and I have things that no other candidate has. During the time I've been gone, my mental health went downhill, alot. I think I was depressed for most of my junior year. And I didn't have any motivation nor drive to even open neocities or FL Studio. This past month, with school being out, I've been trying to improve my mental health by working on things again, reflecting on my achivements, and spending time with the people I love; its a hard journey with ups and downs, but I want to continue doing what I love again, and I want to dedicate myself to the people I love, and the goals I have. Last year I spoke about a project called "aero.online+", a deluxe version of aero.online. I don't know exactly if I will still release this project, because I also want to take my music in a new direction. This past year I've been listening to more incredible artists that I want to incorporate into my music, like Underscores, Jane Remover, and Tsubi Club, and I also want to begin incorporating my own vocals onto my songs. I want to release a new album thats completely evolved - but I know that'll take time to develop, so I can't promise anything yet! For now, I'm going to keep working on this website and new music while I'm not busy with college, school and life. I hope you all will be here for it all.